Freedom Will Rain

President's Day 2012, will be a day that I will not soon forget, if ever. It was just an ordinary Monday, at first. I slept in, checked all my emails, ate lunch and then left the house to go do ministry with the WellHouse. I spent the time in the car praying and worshiping, listening to my "ministry" playlist, which are songs that are about freedom and being a light in the darkness. One of my favorite songs is "Freedom Reigns" by Jason Upton. The lyrics are pretty simple:

Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom/Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom / If you're tired and you are, there is freedom /If you're tired and you are, there is freedom

Freedom Reigns in this place/ Showers of mercy and grace /Falling on every face /There is freedom

Jesus reigns in this place/ Showers of mercy and grace/ Falling on every face /There is freedom

Freedom Reigns in this place/ Showers of mercy and grace/ Falling on every face/There is freedom

Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom/ Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom /So we lift our eyes to Jesus, there is freedom /So we lift our eyes to Jesus, there is freedom


Simple, but so powerful, so profound, so prophetic. It's one of my favorite songs to sing while on ministry sites, and I found myself singing this song and proclaiming it at the truck stop where we were led to go on Monday. While I was singing, out of the corner of my eye, I saw something that caught my attention. I saw a girl and two guys, in between two trucks, talking to one of the truckers. I asked one of my friends if she would walk with me to talk to them; she grabbed one of the men from our group and off we went. We approached the group and asked if we could pray for them. We prayed for the trucker. One of the guys was trying to sell DVD's and we told him what we were doing and gave him a flyer. He told us he was going to make lots of copies of the flyer and pass it to all the girls he knew. I really want to believe that he will. We offered the other guy a Bible, and he said that he didn't want it; he never touched the Bible. Why? I wondered. I started to talk to the girl and asked her name because I wanted to pray for her. She didn't have a specific request so I told her that I would pray that the Lord would guide her and I told her that she was in His hand. She was all "smiley" and I feel like she was encouraged by our conversation. Encouraged because someone wanted to talk to her, and get to know her, for who she is, and not what she can do. While the ministry group gathered together to pray before leaving, my heart went out to this girl. I don't know her life's circumstances that led to her to this current situation with this boyfriend/pimp. I wish she could see herself, like the Lord does, someone valuable and worth dying for. While we were leaving I had such an urgency in my heart to do something, anything. I got some of the flyers and my friend and I went to the bathroom to see if we could tape them on the walls in the bathroom stalls. There was only one problem - I didn't have any tape. But the Lord provided, there were remnants of tape already on the doors! My prayer was that if only she could break free, and have to go to the bathroom, she could be rescued!

It wasn't until I got in my car to head to accountability that the weight of what I saw hit me; and the tears formed and fell. I have been around the world and have seen pimps, have seen girls in bars and clubs, but I had never really seen the two together. How fallen is man?  How fallen that we would abuse another human being for personal monetary gain?

It wasn't until I got to accountability that I realized how my sin, my lack of obedience affects other people. The past few weeks I had been so busy with work and social events that I had neglected spending quality in the Word, with my Lord. I couldn't help but wonder if only I had spent more time in prayer, and more time in the Word, I would have had a deeper conversation with this young girl. You better believe this realization has spurned me on to be in His Word. I write all this to urge you to be in the Word. To realize that we just read for our own benefit, but also for the benefit of anyone the Lord places in our paths. His Word is good, and in it is the power to transform lives. How can we do that if we aren't consumed in it?

Silence is Golden

For as long as I can remember I have disliked silence. I was always listening to music whether it was  while I was driving, studying, or going for a walk. Lord only know how many shower radios I have had. I was just not a fan of the silence. It would drive me crazy, just ask my college roommates.

 Then I went on a little adventure called the World Race. Where I lived, worked, ate, and did life with 5 other girls. I could not get away from them. So silence was rare, especially in South East Asia, where there are sounds of traffic, drums, people, animals, etc. I even prayed that I would get sick while I was in India, so that I could just spend some time alone.

Silence was even rarer when I was in Nicaragua doing life with 14 other people, all living in a little "house" with 2 1/2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, if you can even call it that. Silence and privacy were both rare (the bathroom the girls shared didn't even have a door).

I've been back in the US for about 6 months now, and something astonishing has happened. I've been driving around in silence. Which is so weird for me. Part of the reason I wanted an iPod in the first place was so that I could listen to different artists without having to always be switching out cd's (which can be dangerous). It's amazing what I've been learning on these silent drives. 1 Kings tells us that God's voice is a still small voice. It's very hard to hear It when we are bombarding our ear waves with music or talk shows or even our friends whom we have called on our cell phones, just so that there would be no silence.

I once heard a speaker say that He loved listening to Christian music while He was driving, he said it was like having another quiet time in his day. Which I totally agree with, but maybe sometimes, we should have a quiet, quiet time, and just turn everything off and just talk with the Lord, and listen.

Challenge: Embrace the silence and tell me what you learned. :-)

Hosea on Human Trafficking

As some of you know, the Lord has given me a heart for victims of human trafficking-the women and children forced into prostitution. So this verse really spoke to me on their behalf, "I will not punish your daughters when they play the whore, nor your brides when they commit adultery; for the men themselves go aside with prostitutes and sacrifice with cult prostitutes, and a people without understanding shall come to ruin." (4:14). What a huge responsibility men have, and while there are several men striving for godliness, there are so many more that are lost and are abusing women all over the world. Let's look at Thailand.  In Thai culture it is the responsibility of the female children to provide for their parents when they decide to retire. Well, in the villages of Thailand most Thai men are extremely lazy, drunkards, and womanizers. The young girls are pressured by their culture to provide for their families and since they have no education they go to the city to do the only job they are offered-bar girl. If their fathers took responsibility their daughters would not have to live in such darkness, with so much shame, guilt, and depression. Their fathers take their sons to see the prostitutes and "become a man" and they either don't see, or don't recognize that it is their daughters that are being abused and used. It's not just the Thai men that go to prostitutes; Thailand is known for sex tourism. Men from Europe, Australia, and North America travel to Thailand for the sole purpose of buying sex. These acts only bring you to ruin! The lust is satisfied for only a moment and will return. Repent and turn to the True Lover of your soul. Leviticus 19:29 also says something about this matter, " Do not profane your daughter by making her a prostitute, lest the land fall into prostitution and the land become full of depravity." The Thais have made their daughters prostitutes, and their land is very much depraved. I have seen it, I am mourning it, and I am living in anticipation to see the Lord redeem it.

In conclusion I have learned that it is silly and it really doesn't make any sense to follow the idols of the heart. Jeremiah 17:9 says "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick, who can understand it?" My heart truly is deceitful, which is why I need to look to the Lord and not to my heart. Israel was so lost in their idol worship, that they had forgotten their purpose-that they were chosen to be set apart so that they could point the nations to God. Instead they were "swallowed up; already they are among the nations as a useless vessel" (Hos. 8:8). This to me is one of the saddest things about our sin. When we are so caught up in it we are useless. We all have a purpose in life and that is to know the Lord and to seek Him and to do His will which is to make disciples of all nations. We cannot do that if we are wandering away from him and following the things of this world. So now "it is time to seek the Lord, that He may come and rain righteousness upon you" (Hos. 10:12b).

I Am a Prostitute?

I have been reading the book of Hosea, and I would like to share with you a little of what the Lord has been teaching me. For those of you who are not familiar with Hosea here is a very brief background on the book. Hosea was a prophet. The first Word Hosea had from the Lord was to marry a prostitute, and to have a family with her. Their marriage would be a way that the Lord would use to communicate to the Israelites how He saw their relationship.

First, the Lord has shown me just how deceitful and whorish my heart really is. Let's just take a look at some verses from chapter two:"Plead with your mother, plead-for she is not my wife, and I am not her husband- that she put away her whoring from her face...For she said, 'I will go after my lovers, who give me my bread and my water, my wool and my flax, my oil, and my drink'... She shall pursue her lovers but not overtake them, and she shall seek them but shall not find them. Then she shall say, 'I will go and return to my first husband, for it was better for me then than now'" (vs 2a, 5b). The Lord was asking Hosea to plead with the Israelites to turn from their "lovers" and return to Him. The Lord was to be their husband and they were committing adultery with the things of this world. I remember in college thinking that the Israelites were so very dumb. I mean, the God of the universe had proven faithful so many times and they had seen His miracles first hand, and yet they were so prone to wonder from Him. Then I read vs. 5 and I realized I am just as dumb as they are. How many times have I put my comfort in my job knowing that from it I could provide bread and water for my sustenance, when I have seen how the Lord has provided when I had no job? How many times have I checked my bank account only to be anxious or relieved, when my Husband owns everything, and has already "blessed me with every spiritual blessing in the Heavenly realms" (Ephesians 1:3)? Lately, I have been so lost yearning for a relationship that I have neglected to spend time with the One that my soul was created for. Oh Lord, I repent for not trusting in You, for worrying over trivial matters when You are the Sovereign God over all things. Lord, forgive my forgetfulness and I thank you that You are drawing me back to You. I am so thankful that You have not allowed my lovers to overtake me, but that You have. Thank you for not letting go and giving up on me. Thank you that you take me back, that You have allowed me to see the error of my ways.

Secondly, the Lord has taught me exactly how much my sin cost him. In chapter three of Hosea we find out that Gomer, Hosea's wife, went back to work in prostitution. So he went and "bought her for fifteen shekels of silver and a homer and a lethech of barley" (vs. 2). What does that mean? It cost Hosea 5.82 ounces of silver and 330 liters of barley. The fact that he had to use to different currencies shows us just how dearly it cost him to buy her back. It was not cheap for Hosea to buy back his wife. Being a prophet wasn't exactly the highest paid job in the B.C. days.  Now, Hosea buying Gomer back was just a picture of what the Lord would do for His people. He would buy them back at great price—at the cost of the blood of His Son. Whoa.

(to be continued)